serendipity

have you ever felt like everything is about to change? that sounds so cliche... but i feel like i am waiting for a serendipitous moment to happen and i have no idea when or what that moment will be. it's quite a frightening feeling, but at the same time so incredibly exciting. my whole life has consisted of the same things, which is perfectly fine. it was a beautiful steady rhythm that i loved but now it's as if that rhythm has been jostled and i'm wide awake...i'm falling from cloud nine do do do do do do.......i don't really know that song tbh.

...ok

i finally graduated! maybe that's why i feel this way. during commencement i cried like a baby on the inside but not on the outside because my mom has a tele-photo lens and the last thing i wanted to remember about that day is how swollen my eyes look, especially when my mascara has run down making me look like i had just gotten in some daunting fight in the school lunchroom. no. that's not what i want to remember. i want to remember how my dress had no pockets so the only places i could keep my phone was awkwardly in my bra, making it look rather oddly shaped, or tucked up in my gown sleeve which i didn't like either. aaaand that's just some information.

in all seriousness. since graduation, i feel like tris, from divergent, right after she jumped off the building into that great big hole of unknowness (?). and it's unnerving. i would feel a lot better if i knew there was something as great as Tobias down there. fingers crossed. thanks in advance for your prayers. i have a few ideas of where i'm hoping i'll end up but i don't want to jinx it by saying anything until i've landed, or at least gotten a more clear vision

in other words, this post was kind of a waste.